i wont see you tonight

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

the UNFORGIVEN

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he’s subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man strugggles on and on he’s known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they’ll take away-eay

Chorus:

What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never be
Never see
Won’t see what might have been
What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN

They dedicate their lives
To RUNNING all of his
He tries to please THEM all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He’s battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never be
Never see
Won’t see what might have been
What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN

whoa, whoa

Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
You labeled me
I’ll label you
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
You labeled me
I’ll label you
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN

DEAR GOD

Sebuah jalan sepi, melintasi baris lain dalam keadaan dingin.
sangat jauh dari mereka yang saya maksud cinta,sulit untuk menemukan!!! 

Sementara saya mengingat semua kata yang ditujukan kepada saya 

Tidak dapat membantu.. 

Ya Tuhan satu-satunya hal saya minta dari Anda adalah:

memeluknya saat aku tidak ada,.. 

saat aku terlalu jauh.....

Kita semua membutuhkan orang yang bisa membawa kita kearah kebenaran..

Tapi aku meninggalkannya saat aku menemukannya, 

Dan sekarang saya ingin tetap tinggal,

Karena saya kesepian dan saya lelah.... 

Ada apa di sini...

Tidak dapat membantu...

tetapi saya memikirkan waktu yang saya miliki dengan Anda....

foto dan beberapa kenangan akan membantu saya melewatinya.

 

Beberapa manusia,tidak pernah menemukan jalan..

Tak lama kemudian, mereka merana... 

tetapi saya menemukanmu, ada isyarat untuk tinggal..

kadang saya menyerah, cara-cara egois...

Dan bagaimana bisa saya merindukanmu,

ketika harapan mulai memudar ... 

 

Ya Tuhan satu-satunya hal saya minta dari Anda adalah:

memeluknya saat aku tidak ada,.. 

saat aku terlalu jauh.....

 

Aku hilang lagi...

Sekali lagi....................

kelam...

sebatang rokok LA terselip diantara kedua jari.,,sesekali ku lihat seorang pria paruh baya termenung disudut kamar ukuran 3x4 layaknya ukuran pas foto....disudut lain,tempat pembuangan hajat duduk seorang pria muda sedang menghisap rokok yang sama,buah pemberian dari pria paruh baya itu......

penggalan kisah 4 tahun lalu masih saja membekas....saat kelam nan terpuruk yang jadi modal awal untuk ku merubah hidup......penjara.....

tak banyak yang tau kisah tentang ini,,hanya segilintir orang yang pernah merasakan tempat kelam itu..termasuk saya...siang malam hanya terasa sebagai neraka...saat hanya satu perasaan yang timbul kala berada ditempat hitam itu...rasa rindu akan dunia luar terus saja mengganggu....kebebasan yang dirindukan semua mahluk yang berada ditempat itu...
tapi saya masih patut bersyukur hanya 8 bulan merasakan sesak nya tembok setebal 1 meter yang mengelilingi kompleks itu....sedangkan kawan2 yang lain ada yang sampai 20 tahun,ntah hidupnya akan dihabiskan dtempat ini atau dia akan keluar dalam keadaan hidup...hanya tuhan yang mengetahui itu semua....

stelah 4 tahun tdak bersua,entah bagaimana nasib teman2 sependeritaan saya skarang...bnyak orang bijak berkata teman sependeritaan akan sukar untuk dilupakan ketimbang teman saat suka........apakah masih ada kawan yang masih menghuni tempat hitam itu atau mereka semua sudah menghirup udara bebas..........

teman saya sering berkata, pastinya jangan lupakan kebahagian saat penderitaan datang,,karena hanya dengan itu kegembiraan akan terasa sangat membahagiakan.......
banyak  pelajaran yang saya petik dari pengalaman pahit ini........salah satunya manusia itu bisa salah dan biarkan manusia itu menyadari kesalahan dengan takdir tuhan...apabila manusia lain tidak bisa menyadarkan kesalahan kita maka biarkan lah tuhan yang menyadarkan melalui takdirnya..............dengan begitu kesalahan yang kita perbuat dulu akan susah untuk secara sadar kita ulangi...........

kisah yang sangat menyedihkan sekaligus membawa dampak besar sebagai pengalaman hidup berarti untuk langkahkan kaki menuju nhidup baru yang lebih baik.................


"..........jangan lupakan kegembiraan disaat penderitaan datang.............."

reason.....

Don't turn your back on me. Look in my eyes.

When the whole world was all white,
Did you forget the promise we had then?

Why do you leave me now?
Is it easy for you to do so?
Is it only hard to me?

Since the beginning, our love has been wrong.
With tears, I beg you not to abandon me anymore.

Do you know you should be the ever-lasting light for me?
Never forget when you leave, the whole world in my heart would also disappear.
I want to breathe in the midst of your love....

I smile at the thought of you. It gives me strength.
I cry at the thought of you. I became scared of everything.

seasons apart

Take my hand; Follow me through tranquillity
Stay with me, you will see ardour where shadows grow
Feel my heart, relieve your hope of this fading love
Winter came far too soon, but still the flowers bloom

And winter came too soon, and will the flowers die;
Bow down their heads under the cold, cold sky?
In a world growing blind,
Who can expect me to see the pain that I caused?

It's the end for me and you
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
Was right here at our side

Heal my heart before it breaks,
Shade these austere lights...
Heal that wound that came to me...
Take me away from here

Blindfold my eyes with thy grace...
The hope runs dry, and the words of comfort;
I heard how they cracked...
We are breathing the shame I am the one to blame

It's the end for me and you
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
Was right here at our side

seize the day.........

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home